Blue Wednesday

It's the middle of the week and you would think that it's Monday again:(  Today has been a day that just doesn't seem to want to get going.  Everyone is tired and trying to get school started. There's just no motivation.  The morning is gray from the rain clouds over head, and the I have at this time is to go back to bed and lay under my warm blankets and listen to the rain gently come down on the roof.  Yesterday evening we had a storm blow through with lightening and thunder, but that only last about 20 minutes before it turned back into just rain.  I was so happy to hear the thunder and it was pretty exciting for those few minutes but unfortunately for  Sheldon he had to drive the kids to youth night through it.  I was able to sit and review some of DJ's science books so that he would be ready for his test  today which ironically had a section on lightening safety, but now I'm thinking I will wait until tomorrow to have him take it.

I have not been able to sleep well this past week.   I have had nightmares about leaving my daughter here in the states while the rest of us go gallivanting off to Europe for the next couple years.  Jori has decided she wants to stay in Utah for the summer instead of going to Kathy's house, and will be staying with a friend of hers who lives in Alpine. The girls father has agreed to let Jori stay there rent free so she can save up her   money while working this summer for school.  I am grateful for this family who has graciously accepted Jori into their home, but I can't help feel that we somehow are abandoning her:(  Of coarse this is not true, it's just how things are right now with living in the military and moving to our next assignment but this is a delicate time in a younger persons life and having your parents close by is important.  She should be able to come home, work for the summer and save up her money, enjoy the time with family and rejuvenate herself then be able to head back to college to tackle another year of school. With us having the move this summer, it makes it difficult for her to be able to do that. But with me and the boys not planning to leave here until August now it would be possible for her to come here for most of the summer, but I don't know if she would able to get a Job that would pay her enough for next year.  The other thing is that we will not be seeing her until some time next year:( I know that we have joked about getting her out of the house for college, but I wonder if she might feel a bit abandoned by not really having a permanent home to stay if she needed it? Sheldon talks about how she's adult now and needs to learn to take care of herself, and I do agree with that, but how many times were we able to come home if we needed to when things weren't working out well for us?  With the way the economy is right now things are very unsteady.  I know that she has plenty of places she could go to if she needed to, it's just hard that to get her home will be twice as hard and super expensive flying her to Europe unlike being able to drive a state or two away to get her.  She knows that she can come anywhere we are if she really needed to, and that is good. 

Well, I still need to jump in the shower and go to the store for some things.  The dog is out of food and we need milk and bread.  The boys are being great about reviewing their work and since I don't hear any thunder over head now would be a great time to jump in.